I have resigned myself to the idea that I probably would be nursing a clouded brain for what still remains of this year. Sleep it off during the holiday rush, I guess, but then I was not expecting to receive an invite from her. I have inclined myself to believe that it’s an innocuous invitation by her to have coffee and exchange pleasantries–things that any nice, normal human being could plan in their day or week. But from my side of things, I’m a ball of frayed nerves and everything inside my brain and heart is going haywire.
She has effectively [mis]fired electric signals deep into my core and I have no idea how to stop them.
How do you act in front of someone who is effortless in tearing down your walls–and doesn’t even know it? Somebody show me what to do.
Also, a reminder to myself: Always take mixed signals as a no.
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